and the loneliness breathe in your back; the pink mountains begin around the corner with the dead trees with the dead leaves but they seems to me like a painting from Monet do you remember the way he work with the colors? yes,and I try to think about the other people like they told me to,and when some thought appear it is not happy at all, these empty souls walking up and down the streets entering the market places talking to each other smile laugh nod touch moan cry wail kiss kill oh it’s so empty it’s so dry and I see the kids playing by the curb under the hot sun with their mothers round them like some vanity fair but who is this guy on the ground sleeping covered with papers and sadness and remorse and prayers and death I walk past him I am living in my small world full of razor blades and suicidal thoughts and the black ravens on the wires are dirty and they try to scream at me but I don’t scream back because they have places for people who do that all this present is sodden with vomit and decay booze and despair but behind those purple hills there is a new world full of colors and dance and magic and laughs and it is hopeless for us to try to reach it just go back into your small rooms and when the death comes it will be gentle and calm as a butterfly no more no less. |