fa bathsheba, saarjite y otra vagina dentate

a.
anutha forgotten child uv sun pepul
avin known me by slave name
gatherin loose remains uv her fortune
she furnished me fragmented specter uv hope
hair braided tight
tha rope uv history layin claim ta her labia
betrothal & betrayal makin fa
strange bedfellows in standard dictionaries
a socially prescribed astigmatism
tha boot & heel uv patriarchy embedded in her womb
mary magdalened & consumed reduced ta
sex toy video ho baby makin machine object orifice spittoon
tha moon heavy & sittin on us beached like whales
her stori intricately laced wif birth loss bloodshed
eye asked her how is it that she cud trust again

b.
this crust uv avin learned how ta suffer in silence
grinnin & bearin it swallow pain whole still bindin her eyelids
partin parched lips her voiced rasped
resonatin in hollow uv mah collar bone
a low moan deliverin grave epithet
passed down ta her thru mitochondria
frum fallopia ta uterus ta breath ta breathin
maturatin ta scrotum ta urethra ta uterus & back ta fallopia
a dream obstinate & refusin ta die declarin
& princes shall cum forth frum out uv khemet ethiopia
wif arms outstretched eye crafted mah back
inta bone & flesh shelter as she burrowed inta me
in response ta whi
she sed she wanted ta believe
again
read frum tha palms uv mah hands a livin scripture
a dark & comely song uv solomon
each beginnin soundin too much like endin

c.
an unsolicited advance
a forced conversation
a forced entry
a forced explanation
a forced abortion
a forced reconciliation
a forced return uv affection
a forced pregnancy
a forced weddin
a forced marriage
a forced separation
a forced order uv protection
a forced move
a forced divorce
a forced paternity test
a forced child support payment
a forced single female headed household
more than survivin
a force ta be reckoned wif

d.
sheer she pulled back her paperthin veil ta reveal
what unchecked testosterone often bludgeoned inta unconsciousness
curios fa idle banter chatter chance conversation
that once god was a woman
that she had skatted herself inta existence
ushered lyphe unta this world
initiated tyme tha changin uv seasons
that reason used ta cohabitate wif intuition
nun tha wiser
once she had been tha north star
her bodi temple an underground railroad unto itself
makeshift mule fa men
a bridge fa her back
hard ta concieve
she had always been t/here
even when she did not own herself
that hefer
that sacred cow uv a wuman
she is more than genitalia
had me decryin vacant rhetoric & swearin at wind
our bodies rememberin
how we tended ta repeat ourselves
she wantin ta believe again
& eye wantin ta be different
than mah father & his father befa him
wantin release frum this mongrel minstrel tribute
attributed ta venus & her hottentots
anutha ebonic fantasy

e.
coagulatin
mah eyes begged fa education & forgiveness
a wont willingness ta abandon
an image imitatin an image imitatin an image
tha excesses uv linear thinkin old & fashioned round
a world based on a lie that does not truli exist
victoria’s secrets uncovered tits exposin victorian notions
that still manage ta seep in poison pimp & prostitute
rantin despite old testament pundits revisionists redactors
that eye probably came frum her ribs
that eye can not experience free wifout her
nor du eye harbor such desire ta
cuz eye wanted ta be whole
eye part her she part me
pretendin not ta be lookin
eye met her sundey morning
on j train home frum brooklyn
tradin slave names
she spoke me wif her stori
until train came
& eye began ta bleed
that dey & everi munth afta

f.
she smiles at me

–beluvid ola-jendai