2003 Info

Juice online is a virtual publication of Juice Press

editors: Judy L. Brekke, Stephen S. Morse
contributing editor: Dannan O’Brian (aka Mugsy)

This is the 2003 edition of Juice online.

Juice Press has been in existence since the mid ’70’s.

Juice has been awarded support grants by CCLM, a funding arm of the National Endowment of the Arts, has been archived in the Oakland Museum, Oakland, CA; early members of COSMEP (committe of small magazine editors and publishers) and have had limited but international distribution through libraries, individual subscriptions, and independent bookstores.

I ran into an old friend by Ben L. Hiatt

I RAN INTO AN OLD FRIEND

I ran into an old friend
At the grocery store today

His beard is white now
The years heavy on him

But his grin was real
Behind his solid handshake
His happiness
At seeing me
Was evident

We leaned on our
carts
Two old men
remembering better days

“I live in another town now”
He said
“But I kept my bank account here
So on payday
I have to come here”

“This is why”
He said
“Because I run into old friends”

& we both slid into the past
letting the memories work

& he asked me about
a bartender
who has been dead
for five years
who worked in a bar
I have not entered for a decade

& when I set him straight
on that
it got really quiet
in that big grocery store

In the old days
I was often at his house
Always welcome
But he never came to mine

I paid cash
At the checkout

I didn’t see him
When I left

–Ben L. Hiatt

Synesthesia by Dannon O’Brien

Synesthesia

Ideas sail on hazy color-kites
hues beyond naming wrapped in explosive
musical cognition Warmth, misting
on skin
Absorbed on the tongue
lemon with a cinnamon chaser
Perceptual emotion
the body an instrument
vibration hummed through the veins
Thoughts sing
numbers mambo while aces
fall from their sleeves

–Dannon O’Brien

Suicide by Barbara Hilal

SUICIDE

A fetal form as yet unborn
vague and dark and gray
When I close my eyes and think of her
the phantom figures form
As if in my body she lodged
and waited for a brighter day.
She’s gone but lingers like a song
a ghostly spirit……… fey
Asleep, ethereal dreamless sleep
she waits a birthing time or place
A fetal form, as yet unborn
vague and dark and gray
As if in my body she lodged
and waited for a brighter day
Banishing fear and living aware
of love and joy and life
To be reborn without the scorn
she suffered along the way
They cannot die who were never alive
limping ,balking through their way
Aping desires and thoughts of the masses
seeing the world with an alien eye
A fetal form , as yet unborn
vague and dark and gray
As if in my body she lodged
and waited for a brighter day
Remembering when they they found her there
just ash and bone and teeth
A gasoline can and papers near
She killed herself, they say
Stillborn spirit, unborn soul
Her life story left untold
A fetal form as yet unborn
vague and dark and gray
As if in my body she lodged
and waited for a brighter day.

–Barbara Hilal

Happiness Is by Wendell Metzger

Happiness Is

a properly aged rail fence
time for a second cup of coffee
then getting there just as the
transportation arrives
while remembering that you
did indeed close the gate
in that prized rail fence
and later arriving back
things just as when you left
kids staring as if seeing
you for the first time
then rushing at you
wife in the window holding
up that special dish now
whatever else you may think
that is close to happiness
but write me and tell me anyway

–Wendell Metzger

Exiting Kim’s Bar by William Marsland

Exiting Kim’s Bar

Cool strobes from rusty air con’s cease
ob-noxious fumes from 50 cc donkeys
mingle with diesel-engined noise
jalopified, chugging tourist tanks;
hoards of 8 seater perv-patrols, in dirty blue attire
vie for would be road kills…homing in on
half-cut Casanova’s, waiving life and
foreign currency, to stop a third world world

lungs labour, fighting to extract, sucking
into heaving, sweat soaked chest.
changing sidewalks, echo each new façade
neon nakedness, flicker promises of sex
buzzing out the call of cheap love
pretty pock marked faces
offer second hand virginity
by way of six or seven dollar fucks

girls with dicks, in search of tricks
flamboyantly, parade in droves
flaunting garish… female attributes
to drunken men, who can’t tell pink from brown
dicks parade with scant dressed girls who
suck them dry, lick pouting ruby lips…before they
show the cost of pleasure, by rubbing thumb
on well kept fingers…in a universal mime

–William Marsland

Chat Aperture by Lynze N

Chat Aperture

i met a slave to more.
he sent me a story.
well written, subtley erotic.
the underhum of O.

he begins to want you.
asks you to call, your lungs
are filled with cruddy phlegm .you cough
and tell him ~no i don’t feel like talking~
you could be

a wrestler from havana
for all he knows you could be
his next ex girlfriend
his next faceless
fuck. you have made him want
again, and desire burns while autumn

leaves its colors
to fall on the ground
under the aurora
while the dry stalks
of southern california burn
in a ring
around city known
for the manufacturing of angels.

he wants to imagine my lungs
like the insides of the interstices
between trees. he wants to watch
something burn and dissolve
though me to form wings
to brush his face
as if aerial and bound
to the physics of drag.

–Lynze N

Naples, passer-by by Michele Lamberti

NAPLES, PASSER-BY

But our lot crawls between dry ribs
To keep our metaphysics warm
–T.S. Eliot, Whispers of Immortality

I..

Tribal music from a department-store,
ice cream children, prams and fathers.
On neck and forehead, some faint blue
water from a bronze, public fountain.
I will bear alone the red sirocco.

II..

The vesuvius (bitter about
his constipations), speaks:
“Ask the peasants of Nola and the goat
cheese in their charred, broken stomachs,
ask the grey-haired nobles of Pompei and
display their ruined, ash-filled skulls,
once cracked by their own cooked brains,
when hit by my frisky mighty outflow,
that arrived quickly at the shore and dripped
quietly into the reluctant, raging sea”
Look at him and take a pill

.III.

Amidships with the fishermen, the bouncing
fenders, tanned hands grasping, we stop & float
above a swarm of fishes, almost still,
frozen, then shivers, awakes and flees, like
quicksilver-tears fleeing
the heat of silly hands

IV.

The pigeons slip on wet patio stones.
We hide in the cream-coloured chapel
and your eyes turn black; single, puny
prayers, unable to argue with the waterfall,
running over thumb-thick ancient moss.

–Michele Lamberti

on opening a window by tpf

on opening a window

I looked out the window today
there were trees in the yard
across the street where
all the windows were closed
without drapes or
too many clean spots
on the glass where
the people lurked
in shadows of a room
too dark to see
flickers
(beer and such.)

So I opened the window today
there was a way to
stick my head out
to look at the sky
clouds moved
in white static
animal shapes
of owls hawks
and blurred
vapor trails

definetely not digital
hard to read and
probably not accurate
measures of any future
events of 30 seconds
or less to come
(medi-oric orgasms
shared by the people
in suits)

But anyway I opened the window today
to see what was on television
news and weather in the morning
it was something
to be there first
it looks like rain
water from the sky
a natural phenomenon
dissected frogs at 10
falling out the sky
probably a storm
picked them up when
they weren’t looking
at anything except
maybe flies in the swamp

*commercial break*
buy beer but don’t drink
it all in
and drive
the women crazy
sex smells
good
*end break*

So I closed the window today
the sky didn’t have it right
storms in the afternoon
70% chance of
just another
day.

–tpf

A Good Harbor by Joyce Metzger

A Good Harbor

swings wide the doors of refuge.
will share only with one other
this time of lament.
her eyes haze with mist
as she is forced to take another look.
their knowledge is still impervious
to the real
of what life is,
the shape-shadow of death.
hands shove that thought backward
refuse to acknowledge the feel,
the existence, of anything
seemingly so alien
to this curious world.
nostrils quiver as they imagine
a new aroma
on my clothes
on my flesh
in my hair
as I do also, and will, until
the heavy veil falls
and love notes emerge to become
once again
the warmth of a newer reality,
stair steps to climb later, for
renewal, without the turmoil
which seethes within the quiet tomb
of this rumpus room
today

–Joyce Metzger